Dog-eared, & Flux by Madeleine Ackerman
Dog-eared
I asked once if you’d ever dog-eared a moment,
marked it out for future reference so that you might one day return?
You said yes, that you were young —
In the backseat of your parents' car on the way home at sundown,
shapes cut black against a blue and orange twilight rolled past
in two dimensions as though the outside world were knowable,
cut and glued like children's craft and bereft of the depth
that you knew inside this car — head hung onto your seatbelt,
parents whispers rippling down the highway, into sleep —
Were in your teens, plunging through the green glass of a wave
about to break, bare flesh slick
through the ensconcing sea — breath thickened, bracing
between your temples, eyes furrowed into fireworks
against the onslaught of salt that sought to blind them, and you thought, 'But the ocean is no match for me' —
At a bar with friends, perched around a too-small table and
willing your skin towards your spine — when
she slid you a packet of crisps,
flayed the foil down its middle, spilling its filling like innards
across its flanks like wings and told you to,
'Eat up'.
I asked once if you’d ever dog-eared a moment,
etched it in the midst of so to keep the past as present?
Somewhere you can keep us safe, come back to and still know me.
Flux
Yawn the fat fish from your mouth agape,
all teeth and steam and carcass,
impel past your tongue, tonsils —
slipping like fucking,
like retching like moaning —
and cum, thick, in exorcism,
fish after fish after fish.
Flexed fins slit the walls of your gullet,
desperate as claw marks down concrete —
or hers
down his back —
discreet as the rings counting time inside of tree trunks,
veiled in the flesh through which they peel:
get angry.
Pour forth through the wound
crusting over at its corners,
calluses which flower with
every silent scream —
feel the skin split anew as you empty the fat fish,
their gelatinous film (think
Tarantino, think placenta)
easing this mass exodus, humming between gags,
one must just keep swimming.
The fullest of their girth frays
your sclera with red lightning —
you sigh as the last fish tempers off,
spills free through the softening
'O' of your lips,
wipe the scales from your chin
(like petals, like stained glass, like plaque psoriasis)
and realise — though you’re prone to metaphor,
this is a disease.
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Executive Producers
Daniel Henson
Sue White
Karolina Ristevski