Who grows there?, Recovery & no allegory by Emma Rose

Who grows there?, Recovery & no allegory by Emma Rose

Who grows there?

egg crack on the bench edge:

what glints within? fin-

-gers of rock, salt-sharp, crisp,

molars slicing tongue

mucus froth acid frost

I sit dirtside loosing

liquid, sticky alkaline drips

(I can’t open –

I’ll open)

can I swallow the yolk?

endure tempera on skin?

the thing grows thumb by thumb to meet me;

is talking tangerine; sing(e)ing pores open;

swaying the first stalagmite of dance; it is mush with bones;

hey – is that you?

 

Recovery

it is now

(it was always)

undeniable

what we had was abysmal

most wealth: thieved

most systems: requiring grief

& jobless, there is no bus(i)ness

to distract me from

the vomitous process

of recovery from

(say it)

capitalism

because though I’ve long been composting it

& growing other things from the pit

(and besides, I’ve longer been

too sick to be an esteemed participant

anyway)

the dregs remained.

my last guilty pleasures

‘being busy’ / ‘working hard’ / ‘independence’

must now be twists of skin sloughing off hands

dead and dry from all that soap dousing

disgusting things end disgustingly

I am researching how to love

I am refusing to unsee

the violence underneath

the euphemism, ‘collateral’

& I need you

I raise my disgusting raw

hand-in-permanent-recovery

I have so many questions

but guess who doesn’t run this

press conference anymore

 

no allegory

no ripe, no seed, no plucking,

flesh, stone, skin – no

juice, no pip, no roundness, no tart, no

sour overripe fecund gone to seed cloying dry spore

no compost nothing to bury

no folding into loam for something younger to grow

nothing you can spit out nothing that

fits in a mouth nothing you could

grasp

no allegory

just someone

knuckled fury resplendent

champing their brilliance

& you didn’t witness

it happened

it happened without you

 

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Executive Producers

Daniel Henson

Sue White

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