Nostalgia and Perception by Chelsea Rozario
Nostalgia and Perception
who am i if my writing is not for me
why must i dedicate my passion to a muse
to any muse
when i am not dedicated to myself
and christ writing in tiny font does not make me a better writer
but here I am sans punctuation
using an app employed by the twitter famous apologising for casual racism
my heart aches, cracks and bleeds
inner child hurt
i want to pick her up and hold her like i do the cat in my share-house
somebody please hold me like that
in my current state
with tattoos i saw only in dreams
am I being restrained by nostalgia for a time that did not happen?
maybe I’ve romanticised my adolescence
it was everything i wanted it to be
full of sorrow, needless heartbreak and flesh wounds but here I am
i procrastinated my passion
I’m not sure what it is anymore
and distracted myself with cigarettes, bad men and tequila
and now I am at best a mediocre writer with borderline personality disorder an addiction to
wallowing
who am i if my writing is not for me
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